Does size matter?

[flaglady]

I have struggled with this so much - see, I weigh around 17½ stones (almost 250lbs) and feel that it is a barrier between me and my worship expression. I don't let it stop me in the least when it comes to worship or doing workshops. I take on a kind of "what you see is what you get" attitude.



But inside I'm soo conscious of my weight. I know it would be sensible to do the obvious and lose some, but it's easier said than done. I've always been 'big' and somehow that seems to make it harder to lose.



I would so love to do more 'up front' and want to ask the pastor and the worship leader if I may but I keep thinking what kind of example am I?



I was watching "Songs of Praise" on BBCtv this evening, a programme famous (or should I say infamous) for sticking to the old traditional hymns and Psalms Anglican service. But today they were at the Spring Harvest Festival and Tim Hughes was leading worship.



And they had almost half the stage given over to a group of wonderful flag worshippers! It looked so great but then I found myself thinking how I would love to be 'up there' with them but ..... no way. Dancing elephant, know what I mean?



Sorry for the whinge - just wondered what y'all think.